Wrong Love : When Loving From The Outside Starts To Do Nothing But Hurt

Whilst I act as though I’ve hardly noticed you’re there
The truth is the moment you appeared
My heart skipped a beat it shouldn’t have
And it took all my strength
Not to let the sparkle that only you can ignite
Appear in my eyes.

Whilst I act as though being around you has no impact
And I could quite happily be somewhere else
The truth is it rips me apart
When I know you’re with someone else and I am on my own
Left with nothing but a wild imagination to eat at my soul

Whilst I will turn and walk away as though it doesn’t matter
That I haven’t see you for weeks
Or heard your voice for 133 hours
(Yes I’ve been counting)
The truth is I have to because
I know another hit of you
In the long run is only going to cause me more pain

Whilst I act as though you’re not much to me
And that having you in my life hasn’t relit a fire
I thought had long died
The truth is
This woman who won’t let a slither of control
Out of her grasp has fallen hard
And when you teasingly ask if I love you
The words you hear teasingly back
Are all too painfully not lies.

© 2009 Michelle Penny